Yesterday in the afternoon, and again just before, I read about and saw the images about 3 very cruel cat abuse cases. And as a few of you will know, it seriously triggers my anxiety, which is usually pretty well-managed with medication otherwise.
Just so you know, for anyone like me who gets easily upset about animal abuse: I won’t describe any details, or even what happened in these cases, just that they were cruel abuse cases and my feelings regarding cruelty.
I spent the day totally beside myself and disturbed, and got a massive migraine, as I couldn’t stop thinking about these poor precious cats and what they have gone through, and how they must have felt. I can hear their cries in my mind and see the vivid images. It just breaks my heart every time. I feel despair at the knowledge that every day, so unbelievably many un-humans go out of their way to harm animals, and enjoy torturing them. So many! I feel powerless, as nothing can be done apparently, as people like this just exist and it will not stop. I can’t even find the right words to describe the absolute turmoil in my heart and soul I feel when hearing about all these horrible cases. It’s not about me, but about those poor animals. I emphatically feel with them, imagining the untold agony and fear they must have felt.
If I could have one wish, where I can wish for anything in the world, I would wish that no animal has to suffer anymore.
It also seems to me, that there is increasing heartlessness and violence in the western world. Abuse and sadism have always existed, but to me it seems like there is an increase of violence against helpless living beings, animals and humans alike.
I wonder if anyone has any ideas, as to how better deal with these things, as a person with diagnosed anxiety disorder? I can’t always avoid seeing or coming across abuse like this. I’m asking here, because many of the people in the cat community deal with, or come across abuse cases daily.
I haven’t really slept much this night either, as I kept having nightmares about it. And nightmares about something happening to Murli. But it is always such a comfort to have Murli next to me, safe and sound, happily snoozing under my blanket.
And then this morning, I saw another post about cruelty, which set of yet another migraine.
I really wasn’t sure if I should even post about it all here, as I must sound like a trainwreck? Sighs… But it does really help to write about it while knowing others will read it. It’s like it makes my heart a little bit lighter. So I apologize for this sad and unhappy Sunday post. More positive posts, as well as beautiful photos I took will come later today, or tomorrow at the latest.
Thank you all for reading!