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January 29, 2017 Got upset by terrible abuse stories again

Yesterday in the afternoon, and again just before, I read about and saw the images about 3 very cruel cat abuse cases. And as a few of you will know, it seriously triggers my anxiety, which is usually pretty well-managed with medication otherwise.

Just so you know, for anyone like me who gets easily upset about animal abuse: I won’t describe any details, or even what happened in these cases, just that they were cruel abuse cases and my feelings regarding cruelty.

I spent the day totally beside myself and disturbed, and got a massive migraine, as I couldn’t stop thinking about these poor precious cats and what they have gone through, and how they must have felt. I can hear their cries in my mind and see the vivid images. It just breaks my heart every time. I feel despair at the knowledge that every day, so unbelievably many un-humans go out of their way to harm animals, and enjoy torturing them. So many! I feel powerless, as nothing can be done apparently, as people like this just exist and it will not stop. I can’t even find the right words to describe the absolute turmoil in my heart and soul I feel when hearing about all these horrible cases. It’s not about me, but about those poor animals. I emphatically feel with them, imagining the untold agony and fear they must have felt.

If I could have one wish, where I can wish for anything in the world, I would wish that no animal has to suffer anymore.

It also seems to me, that there is increasing heartlessness and violence in the western world. Abuse and sadism have always existed, but to me it seems like there is an increase of violence against helpless living beings, animals and humans alike.

I wonder if anyone has any ideas, as to how better deal with these things, as a person with diagnosed anxiety disorder? I can’t always avoid seeing or coming across abuse like this. I’m asking here, because many of the people in the cat community deal with, or come across abuse cases daily.

I haven’t really slept much this night either, as I kept having nightmares about it. And nightmares about something happening to Murli. But it is always such a comfort to have Murli next to me, safe and sound, happily snoozing under my blanket.

And then this morning, I saw another post about cruelty, which set of yet another migraine.

I really wasn’t sure if I should even post about it all here, as I must sound like a trainwreck? Sighs… But it does really help to write about it while knowing others will read it. It’s like it makes my heart a little bit lighter. So I apologize for this sad and unhappy Sunday post. More positive posts, as well as beautiful photos I took will come later today, or tomorrow at the latest.

Thank you all for reading!

7 thoughts on “January 29, 2017 Got upset by terrible abuse stories again

  1. Dearest Natascha this is YOUR blog so you post what you want & need to post.
    You wrote eloquently & I can feel your sadness & anxiety over what you saw. I used to be able to handle abuse stories (as I was abused in preteen & teen years). Not that I was desensitized or anything, I could just handle bad situations. Now I can no longer read the horror stories about animals or humans. I do not know what to suggest other than as soon as you read something that sounds bad close the article down. On Facebook I blocked a lot of the ‘well meaning’ animals sites so I don’t have to see the images.
    I too used to have nightmares of bad thins happening to Mingflower; then Nylablue & even Siddhartha Henry.
    The thought of any harm coming to my furbabies makes me physically ill.
    Please know you are not alone & I am sorry you got a migraine again…..
    I hope it passes soon!
    Love & ((((hugs)))) Sherri-Ellen <3

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    1. Thank you so very much for your kind words! It’s like a warm comforting blanket on my heart. I’m feeling much better today! Even lightened my mood seeing lots of happy kitties on catblogs, & was joking around with the Catladies & cats on Twitter. It’s just an absolute nightmare what happens to so many innocent beings.

      Seeing something like that feels like the coldest ice runs through my veins suddenly, and I get sick to my stomach & dizzy, to the point of almost passing out. And then anxiety has its grip tightly around my soul & mind. You probably know as it might feel similar when you are triggered like that. I get similar feelings seeing any form of cruelty & abuse on humans. Thankfully though never saw gruesome things with humans. But am sickened just by regular news and stories you come across. For some reason it really hits me the absolute worst when it’s animals. It’s been like this since forever.

      I think you right and it’s likely the only thing that helps, to look away and close it down instantly before I can even start reading the first sentences.

      I will come back here tomorrow to finish replyingโค๏ธ It’s past midnight… Have slept in the evening before and in the afternoon a bit as well, so got not much done today.
      Just wanted to say thank you and let you know how I’m doing.
      But know that I’m feeling lots better and calm. Writing this post yesterday helped more than I would have thought it could. But somehow it’s like you put it somewhere, and therefore it’s not solely weighing on your heart anymore. I can’t even begin to explain how much it means and helps to chat with you & the lovely littul Purrince every time ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜ป๐Ÿพ

      I’m also happy you are feeling much better! Thankfully! Was about time that Virus let’s go of you ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž The littul Purramedic did well!๐Ÿ˜ธ

      Good night my friend! Purrrs & pawhugs & hugs to both of you ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ˜บ

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  2. I am so relieved you are feeling better Natascha. I DO relate to the anxiety & upset you feel over the animals as I can’t handle those type of stories at all anymore. I hardly watch the news anymore either. It is all so nasty & scary & terrifying.
    I want to feel good about the world I live in (or at least my little bit of it!)
    Today something amazing happened!! The man in our building who caused me a lot of grief & fear last Summer spoke to me & made a proper apology. In fact he apologized 3 times & asked for my forgiveness. I told him he was forgiven & this was a New year & a fresh start. Fingers crossed, he will remain in a good frame of mind. (he is seriously mentally unwell). I can tell you it lightened my heart & mind that he apologized & took responsibility for his behavior. He had me scared witless last Summer & had threatened to assault me.
    So let’s hope for a new beginning.
    Thanks for ‘listening’ to me; your friendship means a lot to me!
    (((hugs))) & <3 Love <3 Sherri-Ellen

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    1. It’s like we share the exact same thoughts sometimes. Just like you, I also started to avoid the news like the plague. I avoid it on TV, in print, as well as online. It really is unbearable by now. The news are now only one absolute horror after another.

      I want to see the positive things in life, and everything that is good. I just want my life to be as happy as possible, and experience things in the light of normality at the least. There is still a lot of beautiful and good things, and there is light. I don’t want the darkness that seems to be so big at the moment in society and the world to swallow me up. I know there is light and love, as the whole universe came to be from it.

      I’m perfectly fine with my little world and immediate surroundings. Just simply my life as it is in my beautiful country and city, with Murli & Papa & the wonderful friends, like you! There are so many wonderful and good people.

      I just can’t bear all the horrible bad things anymore.

      Yay! That sounds good! Oh I hope it stays like this now with your neighbor! What a scary thing to live with otherwise… I really want you and Siddhartha Henry to be safe! Maybe the neighbor got on some medication that helps him now? I pray it will remain peaceful like this ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž

      Going to post some pics tomorrow from when I took a walk through the park last Saturday, when I picked up Murlis food.

      And thanks for all your & Siddhartha Henrys lovely comments! Can’t wait to reply! (Was lots tired again today and slept as much as yesterday) Ridiculous! Lol! Sorry for that. But I’m fine! Had no migraine and feel calm and comfortable โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ’•

      Thanks for listening to me as well! And thank you so very much for your kind words ๐Ÿ’— Your friendship means really a lot to me as well and I’m so happy our lives crossed paths online! So thankfulโค๏ธ Murli and I love both of you! ((((Hugs)))) & love & Murlis paw hugs & nose kisses for you both!

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      1. I too, have made my own world. My apartment is my ‘sanctuary’. I only allow certain people into my space. With TV & Internet it is the same. I will read a headline to acquaint myself with what has happened but rarely read the articles now. Same with watching the news on TV. I will turn to something else when it becomes too much. I guess we each have to be vigilant about what we allow into our minds.
        Yes the neighbor has had meds re-adjusted. I pray he stays on them. He is almost ‘human’ now…I saw him as a person for the 1st time in 10 yrs being here.
        Thank you for your friendship also. You & Murli mean a lot to us.
        Love Sherri-Ellen & Siddhartha Henry <3 <3

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        1. You expressed it perfectly. My home is my sanctuary also, and we also only allow close friends and family to come in. I started to completely avoid the News everywhere. The only place I use to be informed on other things I’m interested in, like science and nature, I’ll go on reddit. Because there is an extension for the Firefox browser, as well as for the Chrome browser that works with Reddit (Reddit Enhancement Suite) with which I can set filters. I can filter out certain words from the titles and the content. Which works totally well, and I never come across anything upsetting anymore there.

          It’s really true, we have to be vigilant to protect our mind.

          Oh I pray he’ll stay on those meds! It’s amazing how much they can help with people. That is such a long time having to deal with a scary neighbor. I really wish you both so much, that he’ll stay stable and peaceful like that.

          Sending lots of Love for you and Siddhartha Henry๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’• You both mean so much to us as well! Purrs, pawhugs and hugs! Natascha & Murli๐Ÿพ

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  3. I think you have a great idea about how you search info/news. I can just scroll past a lot of items. And I just do not read many titles.
    I hope the man stays on his meds; he is a much nicer person.
    Unfortunately a woman I was friends with upstairs has turned on me & my neighbor. My neighbor lives below the woman so very close proximity. Just when we get one person sorted out; another one goes ‘off the rails’.
    **sighs**(((hugs))) Sherri-Ellen

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