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My heart broke today, as my beloved Murli unexpectedly passed away.

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Lisa and Murli watching Hero play

This is how she was and hung out just yesterday. She was happy. Nothing was pointing to anything being wrong.

I just wanted to let you all know, that my sweet girl Murli passed away early this morning.

My heart shattered when I found her lying on one of her spots next to the heater, as if she had simply laid down on her side to sleep and then died. When I looked down to her and saw that her beautiful big eyes were not reacting to my presence and she was lying so still, I knew she was gone. In a panic right away, I went to pet her head, and it felt cold. Her tummy was still a bit warm.

Her last big health check in the late summer showed perfectly normal blood results. Her thyroid was doing fine too with her meds, her Hyperthyroidism was totally under control with her having completely recovered from the symptoms she had from it before we started treatment. She kept the same weight.

Her teeth were regularly sorted out, and all her organs were working normally. There was no sign of any danger. I just don’t know what happened.

I called the pet cemetery people and my sweet Murli was picked up around midday. She’ll be cremated and I will pick up her Urn. They are really lovely and extremely caring and respectful in everything they do.

They will also make a beautiful ceramic heart with her paw print in it. I also chose her Urn, which is also beautiful.

It was so difficult to have to give her body away, but I will get her remains back in about a week.

I held her body a couple times and hugged and cuddled her. I just would have given anything for life to come rushing back into her.

Murli and I had a very special bond. She always knew when I was about to come home, even at random times. She also always knew when I woke up, even if she wasn’t in the room with me. I didn’t have to move, just opening my eyes was enough and she knew I was awake from a few rooms over. Then she would come to me.

She was a happy girl all the way to the end. She took to the sweet kittens Hero and Lisa more and more and loved watching them play. Murli’s tail was always straight up and she had the most beautiful purr.

I wish there would have been any sign for anything being wrong, as I would have gotten her to the Vet in an instant. I wish I would have been able to save her, from whatever was failing in her body. I also wish I would have been with her when she died, and not asleep.

There is so much more I need to tell you all, about what has been going on these days. I am a wreck at the moment, running on hardly any sleep.

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Samantha is a worry as well right now, because she had a little surgery with local anaesthesia to cut out an old scar that had started to change and grow, although it was benign. But it had to be removed and I made sure it was done very quickly, since I didn’t want to take a chance of something like that becoming cancerous.

Thank God it was benign. But now she has to wear a cone, which makes her too worried to move around on her own, because she can’t see her feet. It robs her of her important senses.

Due to that, I removed the cone on Wednesday night (she had the little surgery Wednesday morning). It went alright until  Friday morning, when she had suddenly and very quickly pulled out all her stitches. So I rushed her to the Vet in a Taxi right away. Thankfully it had just happened, so the wound area was still fresh and it was possible to sew her back up. If the area would have dried out already, she would have had to be put under anaesthesia and the area cut out some more, to have fresh tissue that can grow back together again. Dry tissue would not grow together again like that.

We were lucky she didn’t get an infection out of that. Though she had been put on antibiotics anyway.

So now the cone has to stay on. I can’t cover her wound area either, as it needs to be able to drain properly if it has to and it heals better that way. Also, due to the place that area is on her body, it’s very easy for her to reach with her mouth. So I can’t even use anything else, or even just shorten the cone. The cone itself is just exactly long enough for her to not be able to reach it.

Since she is too afraid to move around much with the cone, I have to carry her to the kitty toilet and I feed her by hand and give her water with a syringe.

Just yesterday I went and bought some chicken breast for Samantha and Murli to make them happy with it, as they both are crazy for it. Murli and Samantha were both so excited while I was cooking them and preparing it all for them. Both were meowing and just could not wait. Both of them ate two bowls of chicken breast each.

I just don’t know how I will get over not having my sweet little best friend around me anymore, my Babygirl Murli. We have been together since I adopted her with just a couple weeks old. She only turned 14 in August.

I can’t even put it into words how shattered I feel, how much I miss her and how badly I want her back alive. No, I really do not know how I am going to get over her passing.

But I do have so much love for my sweet 4 remaining babies and I will make sure they will have nothing less than a life filled with love and happiness. I just pray that we have many many more years with them all. I can’t bear to even think of losing one of them too.

I know I will see my lovely Murli again when it’s my time to leave my body, but it’s going to be a long time until we’re all reunited and I will miss her so so much.

Murli on a lovely warm fall day
This was just on October 18, 2019 when we had a wonderfully warm day. Murli was so very happy to hang out on the balcony and she kept going out, even if it’s been cold, at least for a few minutes at a time.

65 thoughts on “My heart broke today, as my beloved Murli unexpectedly passed away.

  1. My deepest condolences for the loss of your Murli.
    The last cat, as I have left, can be on the same way too, as he hasn’t been eating much the last days and I gave him chicken today, which I ate a bit of. But not enough.
    I do really feel with you and as you know, I lost the brother in June too. But okay, my Bølle is now 16 1/2 years old, so I know it might be soon anyway.
    Good for you to have the other cats, this helps a lot.

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    1. Thank you so very much for your kind words. I am so sorry to hear about your worries about your sweet Bølle. I can relate completely. I hope so much he is going to get over the state he is in at the moment. Maybe it’s because of the loss of his brother? Sometimes it starts after an extended time of being alone that cats become depressed.
      I’m so sorry for your loss as well. It’s just so hard.
      Sending all my love to you and Bølle.

      PS: Since the day I published this post, our internet was playing up badly. I was unable to load any websites, it was that slow. The rest of the time the connection was lost completely. That’s why I was unable to reply to anyone. I had to change to another internet provider today and now we finally have properly working internet again.

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  2. Oh Natascha, I’m so so sad to read about beautiful Murli. But it sounds like she passed very suddenly, with no warning to you, or her. She didn’t suffer, and although it has come as a shock, you gave her a fabulous life, and she was happy until the end…which is what we all wish for with our furbabies. I hope the rest of your feline family can look back on the wonderful times you shared ❤️ Thinking of you, Leanne and Gizmo x

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    1. I’m so thankful and touched by yours and everyone’s beautiful and sweet words. Yes, it was very sudden and without any signs at all before. She passed away in her sleep, appearing as if she did not even notice anything of it. She lied there on her blanket just like she always did when she slept next to a heater. Her body was relaxed and she looked comfortable. No signs of distress. This is what I am glad for, that she passed on so painlessly and in her sleep. There was no suffering at all.
      Our Vet thinks it was either her heart or an aneurysm, since there were no symptoms of organ failure and her last big blood test was fine.

      As you said, she truly was happy all her life, right until she passed. She was and is still loved beyond what I could even try to describe with my words. I felt very close with her and we had a very tight and strong bond. Murli had a calming and comforting influence on other cats. She was like a warm presence in our home and life. For all of this I am thankful for. I know how many go with suffering and pain.

      I’m writing on a new blog post.

      I’m very sorry it took until now for me to be able to reply, but our internet simply wasn’t working since December 11. New provider now!

      Thank you so much again for your thoughts! Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa and myself are sending you and Giz lots of love ❤️️

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    1. Thank you so much! It really feels comforting to receive so much love and kind thoughts from everyone. We never even suspected, or expected that Murli could pass away any time soon. It came as such a shock to us all and I was absolutely devastated. Oh I love her so much. I hope she knew just how much. All her life I did everything to make sure she feels nothing but love and happiness and I know she was happy all the way until the end. She passed without suffering, in her sleep, which is something I am thankful for. To know that she did not suffer is helping me. And she passed away at home, in a comfy warm spot.

      Thank you again. Sending love from us all ❤️️

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  3. Dearest Natascha & Ralph….I am typing with tears streaming down my face…..I can’t breathe…I feel your anguish my friends. I am so very sorry that Murli has gone to Pure Land to be with Purrince Siddhartha Henry. He will take good care of her. And Nylablue & Mingflower will be there too….
    I know this is a small comfort but Murli went on her terms. Cats hide illness so well; which she did & she left without a fuss sparing you the initial agony. Your “Baby Girl” was one in a million. We will never forget her…..
    Makes me wonder if the universe put Hero & Lisa in your lives for this very reason…to ease the loss in some way.
    May Murli run free & may your memories be a comfort to you & ralhp now & in the future.
    Lots of ❤ ❤ & {{{hugsss}}} Sherri-Ellen & gentle purrsss BellaDharma

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    1. My dear friends Sherri-Ellen and BellaDharma ❤️️ I can only imagine how much of a shock it must have been to you also. It was so unexpected. We would have never expected her to go so soon. She was doing so well and was happy. The only thing good is to know that she slept away peacefully, on one of her spots, next to the warm heater on a blanket. Sleeping like she has always done. She went to Pure Land in her sleep, without waking up again. Everything about how she was lying there was peaceful and there were no signs of distress on her at all.

      I know your sweet beloved Purrince, Nylablue and Migflower will be there with her, just like everyone else. She’s well taken care of in Pure Land. I know where she and the others are, there is no pain and no sadness.

      Our Vet thinks it must have been her heart or an aneurysm. She had no signs of organ failure, and in her last big blood test, everything was fine. You’re right, she went on her terms. The most difficult for me is that I was not right there next to her when she slept away. That I could not tell her one more time how much I love her. Murli was loved by us all and so many friends. She was surrounded by love all her life and the same love connects us to her still. The bond between Murli and me will never break. It’s connecting us like it did all her life and will connect us still when I meet her again once I pass.

      It really is love and friendship that helps through this difficult time. Now that I am back online with working internet, I’ll do my best to be there for you also.

      Thank you so very much for your sweet and kind thoughts, and for your wonderful friendship for Murli and me. All of us send you both love and paw hugs and purrs ❤️️❤️️❤️️

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      1. My dearest Natascha you got back online & then I got hacked…it was quite an rotten few months. I think your Vet was right about Murli…it was too sudden & with no other signs of trauma or illness. I understand how you feel wanting to be with her as she slept away. She went quietly in her own way, so as not to distress you, Ralph & the other kitties….I miss all my kitties….all the ones listed only WP page & even more that are not listed.
        I will go now….I am having trouble typing thru my years.
        Love & {{hugs}} Sherri-Ellen & purrsss BellaDharma

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  4. So, so sorry to hear this, Natascha. It is an agonizing experience for sure. Time will heal this but for now think about the wonderful life you gave her. She was a lucky kitty!

    This same thing happened to our daughter’s cat many years ago. Perfectly fine, and one day she just passed, with no warning or symptoms. One of the other comments made the statement that cats pass without complaining. It’s like they don’t want you so suffer through their end of life. Murli was looking out for you.

    Thankfully you have two new kitties that need your love and they will help you heal.

    As always, give my best to Ralph.

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    1. Thank you so very much for your kind words Al. I am sorry for my late reply, but our internet was not working for that whole time. I switched us to a new internet provider now and it’s working fine.

      It really was such a hard blow and such a shock. We would have never expected her to go so soon. You are right, cats are really good at hiding illness and pain. Though usually I always knew if something was not right with her, since I knew her so well. I usually always knew if something wasn’t right. But it was also the blood test and big health check-up in the late summer that showed everything was fine with her.

      Our Vet thinks it must have been her heart or an aneurysm, since that can happen so suddenly without any symptoms. The only thing that I am glad for is that she at least passed away in her sleep, without any fear, pain or suffering, in one of her favourite places, on a blanket next to a heater. She must have simply laid down like she always did and passed away in her sleep. The way she was lying was just as she always was when lying next to the heater.

      I’m still crying to this day and still wake up constantly during the night, with a panicked realisation that Murli has passed away. But all the love and support I have from everyone, including my kitties, is helping me through this.

      I want to fill the lives of the kittens Hero and Lisa with just as much love and happiness as Murli’s Samantha’s and Sonic’s. I wish life would last much much longer for everyone.

      Now that we have internet again, I’m catching up and replying to everyone and I will be publishing a new post soon.

      Thank you so much again. Much love from us all! ❤️️

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  5. I was shocked to hear the news of the passing of Murli. It is very disturbing not to have any idea what happened to her so quickly, and sad it happened as the holidays approach. 14 years was a decent lifespan, but it could have been longer, I know. She will never be forgotten and will always live in your heart.

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    1. Thank you for your kind comment Greg. It really was and still is a shock. Many of you all reacted with shock too. It just was totally unexpected. Especially because of how thorough her last health check was in the late summer, and everything was fine then. Our Vet thinks it might have been simply her heart or an aneurysm, since there were no signs of organ failure beforehand. She was happy all the way to the end. I am only glad that she passed away painlessly and without suffering in her sleep. Lying on a blanket next to a heater like she always did.

      It’s been very difficult since that day of Murli’s passing and I’m still missing her painfully, and wake up countless times during the night, with a feeling of panic and sadness.

      But I am going on like always, with the support of love and friendship, which is the biggest help. It’s the love for and from everyone that has been helping me cope. It also helped the cats cope, especially Sonic, who was really sad for a while. I shower them with all my love and attention.

      It’s beautiful how Murli was loved by our own cats, and by so many others too. She touched so many hearts. You are right, Murli will always live in my heart, and my bond with her will never break until we are reunited again once my time has come.

      I’m really sorry for my late reply. But our internet had become totally useless and nothing would work, including my mobile internet on my phone. Now that I changed us to another internet provider, everything is working great again! So I will be publishing another post soon, and try to catch up with everyone.

      Thank you so much again, for your kind thoughts. ❤️️

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  6. We are so sorry to read of Murli’s passing. She certainly had a good life and knew extraordinary love. She will never really leave you. Purrayers and POTP to you and all who loved her.

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    1. Thank you so much for your sweet comment. She really was surrounded by love all her life and we had a special and really strong bond. It’s going to be very difficult for a long time without her around. But it’s a beautiful thought that she will never really leave me. The bond I have with her will never break.

      I’m so thankful for all the love and support from everyone. It’s all helping me cope better. I’m just so sorry it’s taken so long for me to start replying to you all. Our Internet just totally stopped working ever since December 11. Now I’ve switched us to a new provider and we’re finally having normal internet again. I’m going to post again on Christmas Day.

      Sending you love from us all and lots of purrs! ❤️️❤️️❤️️

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    1. Thank you so much! Yes, it hurts horribly. I wish they would live much much longer. She’s missed very badly and it will take a lot of time to cope with it. But the love from everyone, as well as Ralph and my kitty family, helps so much. I’m so thankful for all the love and support I’ve received.

      We’ve been out of Internet since December 11. I’ve switched us to a different provider now and so I’m finally back and able to start replying to all the lovely comments. I’ll also post again on Christmas Day and will publish regularly afterwards, as there is so much to post about.

      I’ll continue to write about our little growing family. Murli is always with me in my heart.
      Lots of love from us all ❤️️

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  7. oh my dear Natascha, I cry now, I know how your heart beating now, I know I can feel too, I remember my little Princess… We all love cats but whet they leave us,….ah! as if they will live endless with us… But Murli was a lovely one and also lucky one to have a wonderful human family… rememberence and photographs, they are always with us, in our brains… I loved too, my heart, my thoughts with you dear, I am so sad as much as you… Love and hugs, nia

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    1. My dear friend Nia! Despite how late this reply comes, I still wanted to write it. I know you understand how it feels. It’s really so difficult, every time. And every single one is missed so so much, forever. It would be so wonderful if they could live forever with us. If everyone could live forever. We do live forever, I truly believe it, just not in our bodies. Our soul, which is who we are as a being, with the same personality and everything, lives on forever, in a place that is not visible to us. Murli is where all of our loved ones go, human and animal. Free of sadness, pain, worries, and where time has no meaning. For Murli, it might be like the blink of an eye until I’m reunited with her, after living out my life. For me here in my body, it’s going to be the rest of my life of missing her.

      Just like it is with your little Princess. All the memories, and the bond between us and our beloved cats, the love and friendship, it’s going to stay with us until we are reunited again. They truly leave their paw print right on our hearts.

      I thank you so so much for all your wonderful and sweet comments. I wish I could have been here and replying much sooner. Love and hugs! 💕

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  8. Oh, Natascha, it’s so sad, my heart breaks for you. She will be so dearly missed, that beautiful girl 😥 Soft Pawkisses to comfort you, Ralph and her furrie sisters. Until we meet again my furriend💗💗💗

    Samantha, please stay well. Will send Healing Pawkisses especially for you🐾😽💞

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    1. My dear sweet Binky and Granny! Thank you so very much, for your kind comments everywhere. You are so wonderful. All the love has been a big comfort and help. Murli really is missed so much. Samantha, who had been in pretty much the same spots while she had that cone for two weeks, hasn’t realised right away as Murli passed. So since she is free of her cone, she keeps looking for Murli over and over again, still. Sonic was looking for her for a long time as well. Even the kittens did, even though they only knew her for about a month. Murli was a special kitty, who was instantly loved by every cat.

      All the love from everyone and my family, of Ralph, Sonic, Samantha, Lisa and Hero are my rescue really. Also, the furkids need all my love and attention as well, and they need me to be my normal self, since they always pick up on my emotions, and it affects them.

      Thank you so much as well for your healing pawkisses for Samantha! She has been healing up very well! By now it’s just a scar anymore. It took a bit longer to heal after she had ripped out her initial stitches, but it’s all good now. Especially without the cone, she’s been recovering just fine and is back to normal.

      So, even though it’s very late, I still wanted to reply to each and every lovely comment I had received, now that I finally have time and feel well enough to sit down with my laptop.

      Thank you so much! Sending lots of love and pawkisses from everyone 💕🐾😽🐾😽🐾😽🐾😽💕

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  9. Natascha, I am so sad to hear your sad news. Murli will always be there in your heart, but it will take time to get used to her not being there with you. On one side falling asleep is a good passing away and she did not have to suffer or was in pain. My thoughts are with you and Ralph. I know she will be very much missed, she had a very good life with you and was so loved!. Big comforting hugs. xxx

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    1. My dear Ute! Thank you so much for your kind words. You are right with everything you said.

      It was good for her to go as she did. Murli simply slept away, comfy and warm, at one of her favourite spots. It helped a bit, because it was so obvious that there was no sign of distress on her. She looked like she always did when she slept, except for the open eyes. Thankfully our Vet told me that the eyes open up after they pass away in their sleep. Because I was confused why her eyes were open and worried she wok up at the last moment and could have been frightened. But thankfully she didn’t even notice anything of it herself.

      It was most likely her heart. It just simply stopped.

      It’s very difficult still, but I am blessed by having so much love and support in my life. Thanks to all the love from everyone, and Ralph, and my sweet Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa.

      I’m thankful I had Murli in my life. She will always be part of me and our little family, and always in my heart, always loved. Once my time has come, I just know we will be reunited again. But until then, I will miss her for the rest of my life.

      Big hugs and love. Thank you so much!💕

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  10. Natascha and Ralph, it is so hard losing a beloved pet, especially so unexpectedly. I know how much you both loved Murli. She was a beautiful cat and lucky to have shared her life with you two. Des

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    1. Thank you so very much. I’m lucky I was able to share my life with my beautiful Murli. I’m thankful for every moment I had with her in my life. She had so much love and warmth in her and we were so close. At least she did not suffer and just slept away. All the support and love from everyone and having my lovely little family of Ralph and the cats Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa, is helping me.

      Thank you so much for your lovely and kind words. It helped to receive so much kindness during this difficult time. I’m sorry my reply comes so late… But I still wanted to reply to everyone, now that we have working internet, and I am able to sit down with my laptop long enough finally.

      Lots of love to you 💕

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  11. I’m heartbroken to hear about Murli.I know the pain of such a sudden loss as my precious Violet passed suddenly at the age of 7 1/2 four years ago and I still miss her. I’m sure Samantha and Sonic are grieving, too, as well as Ralph, I pray your memories of her get you through the grief. I wish we had a pet cemetary that would do that where I live.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind comment Barb! Oh, it’s so difficult when they pass on. I’m so sorry your sweet Violet passed at such a young age. I also miss every single one of my cats who passed. So I understand. They leave their paw prints on our hearts forever. I’ll miss Murli for as long as I live.

      I’m so thankful we have Pet cemeteries and Pet Crematories here. There are a couple even who do this. The one I chose is absolutely wonderful. They are so kind and understanding, no stress, no rushing, everything is warm and friendly. It’s actually much more comforting and well done than I’ve seen it for humans. It really helps to have Murli’s urn home with me. I wish I had known about the pet crematory back when my Geenie passed away 10 years ago.

      I wish my reply would not come as late as it does. But I wanted to reply to every wonderful and kind comment, now that we have working internet and I feel well enough and have enough time to sit down with my laptop.

      Lots of love from us💕

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  12. I am so sorry to hear of the loss of Murli. You certainly had a special bond with her, and you will always have good memories of her. You are a wonderful cat mommy, and I know they love and appreciate you. No one and nothing can ever take the place of Murli, but I hope your other cats will provide a comfort for you.
    Love to you and Ralph,
    Linda

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    1. Thank you so very much for your wonderful comment! Yes, we truly did have a special bond. Murli was special to everyone who knew her, including the other cats. I know her soul is alive, well, and safe and that we will be reunited again once my time has come. Until then, I will miss her dearly for the rest of my life. My bond with her and my love for her will stay with me.

      I’m truly blessed to have so much love in my life. All the love I received from everyone, and the love from Ralph and the other precious kitties, Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa. I love them all so much. I’m sure it was meant to be, that Hero and Lisa came into my life at the time they did. These two babies are now so happy with us and they are so sweet and loving. The kittens’ Hero and Lisa only knew Murli for a short time, but they loved her right away, and she loved them.

      I’m so lucky to have so many blessings in my life and I hold on to everyone I love, and enjoy every moment I have with them.

      I’m so sorry it took me so long for my reply. It’s been so many things making it almost impossible to just sit down with my laptop. But with the internet back and having enough time, as well as feeling good enough, I wanted to reply to all the wonderful comments. It was such a big comfort to receive so much understanding and love from everyone.

      Lots of love from us💕

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    1. I’m so sorry it’s been so long to get back to you with my reply. Because it really meant a lot to me, and it also helped me that so many of you came to leave their thoughts and their love for Murli. It’s been a month exactly yesterday, and I still can’t believe that she not here with me. So many times I still expect her to be there, just for a second, since we were always together.

      Thank you so much again! Sending love and purrs from Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa ❤

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    1. Thank you so much for your lovely and sweet comment. All these comments helped so much, as they have been a comfort. I’ve read them all, it just took me a long time to reply, as the whole past month was a whirlwind of so many things going on at once.
      I am grateful too, that Murli did not suffer and apparently she didn’t even notice anything. She just went to have a nap and didn’t wake up anymore. It’s been a month exactly yesterday, and I’m missing her so much.
      I am so thankful though to have my other furkids, and for Hero and Lisa to have come into our lives, as if it was simply meant to be that way. They distract me a lot, and need all my love and attention. I also get so much love from the kitties, so many cuddles and they stay by my side for most of the day and night. Ralph was and is my rescue in all of this too, he’s like a calm, warm and strong place in the middle of a storm.

      Samantha is thankfully doing awesome! She healed up fine by now. It took a while, but it’s now healed and she’s back being her normal self.

      Thank you so very much again, for your love, thoughts, and prayers ❤
      Sending love from all of us!

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    1. Thank you so very much for your sweet words and love. Even though it’s been taking me a long time to finish replying to everyone, I still want to reply to each and every one. Because all that love and the many sweet comments for Murli, gave me a lot of comfort during this difficult time.

      I’m still having a difficult time and miss her so very much. Though I am thankful to have so much support and love in my life from everyone, including my husband Ralph and my other sweet cats Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa.

      Sending you big hugs and purrs! ❤

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  13. I’m so sorry to learn of the loss of your Murli, Natascha. I have lost many over the years and I know it’s very hard when they leave us, especially when it’s sudden. Sending love and hopes for peace and comfort in god memories.

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    1. I know it’s taking me forever to reply to everyone, but I want to get back to you, even if it’s late. Because I’m so thankful for your love and support. Murli is being missed very much, and it’s still so difficult. But you know exactly what it feels like.
      I wish they would be able to live with us forever and never leave.

      All the love and support from everyone was and is a big help! It means so much to me, seeing all the kind words and thoughts for Murli. I’m also really lucky to have my husband Ralph, and my other kitties Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa. They all kept me busy and I’m getting so much love from them.

      Love, big hugs and purrs from us ❤

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    1. Thank you so very much for stopping by and leaving your lovely comment. It’s been taking me forever to reply to everyone, but I want to say how grateful I am for your support. It was and still is such a big help to me, and comfort, to read all those sweet comments for Murli and me.

      Yes, it was one of the most difficult things about Murli’s passing. It was so sudden and totally unexpected. It is so difficult to deal with, that I wasn’t there with her for her last moments, because I had just fallen asleep within those two hours (but probably less) during which she had passed, very early in the morning. If I had just been awake a little bit longer, I would have been there with her. And there are all those thoughts that keep my mind busy, about if she would have died at all had I been awake. Though our Vet said it most likely was her heart or an aneurysm, since it happened without any warning signs before.

      I’ll love her forever, and I’ll miss her for the rest of my life. She’s now happy on the other side, there won’t be any sadness for her, which I am thankful for. And time probably has no meaning over there, so it might just be a short time for Murli, until we are reunited again, once my life ends.

      Thank you so much! Sending love, hugs and purrs from us ❤

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      1. Yes, the time will only be here for you, on this side of eternity. When my first schnauzer was dying, I held her all night. In the morning, when I stepped away for only a few minutes, she breathed her last breath. I think she wanted it that way. I’m sure Murli wouldn’t want you to blame yourself.

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        1. I’m so sorry your Schnauzer girl passed on, just when you stepped away for a moment. I do hear about this happening over and over again. It really seems as if they wait until they are alone. Some also go and hide somewhere to be alone when they pass on. I’m sure your girl wanted it to be that way.

          I’m just missing her so very much and wish she would still be here with us. But you know exactly what is feels like.

          Sending lots of love and thank you for your kind words ❤

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  14. So sorry to hear of your sad loss,many hugs are winging their way to you.As for the cone there are pet pyjama type things that your other cat can wear ,that will cover the area but still allow it to breath and drain and heal naturally but will stop the access to the surgery area.A lot of people use this option instead of the cone so it causes less stress to the pet.it might be worth looking in to it,xx Speedy and Mum Rachel

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    1. Thank you so much! I read all the lovely comments once our internet was working again, but it took me until now to finish replying to everyone. But I wanted to say how much it meant to me and how much it helps to receive so much love and support. It’s been so comforting.
      I’m still having a hard time and I miss Murli so very much.

      Though thankfully, my other cats are giving me so much love, and keep me distracted constantly. It was difficult for the others as well, especially Sonic and Samantha. They kept looking for Murli for a long time.

      Thank you also for your tip regarding the pet pyjama! Even though I wasn’t able to cover the wound with anything on Samantha, because of the wire type stitches, which would cause irritation if covered by anything. Although I could have used something like that right after she got stitched up the first time, with the soft stitches.

      But thankfully Samantha healed up fine, and she’s back to normal. I’m so glad she recovered from it all.

      But now I know these exist and where to get them from. I’ll most definitely use one in the future after any surgeries. I’ll probably order a few in a couple of different sizes, just to have them at hand right away if they’re needed. Also, I just know there will be more cats joining our family at some point in the future, so it’s good to have.

      Lots of love, hugs and purrs from us ❤

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      1. We are glad to hear Samantha has healed up nicely.Great idea to order some pet pyjamas to keep hand just in case.I am glad the rest of you babies rallied around you and each other,they know just what is needed when it is needed don’t they?xx Speedy and Rachel

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        1. Those pet pyjamas are great! Totally worth it to have a little supply of them.

          Yes the babies are amazing. I’m so grateful I have them in my life. They definitely always know what is needed. They always pick up on everything.

          Especially Sonic and Samantha have been sad and confused that Murli isn’t here anymore. The little ones, Hero and Lisa, only knew her for about a month. Though they liked each other right away.

          They were comforting each other.

          Sending love and hugs from us all 💕

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  15. I know no words will bring her back but I know your grief and the depth of your loss and only time will soften the blow of your sudden grief.

    I am so sorry she has gone from you.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind and understanding words. You’re right, it’s going to take time until I feel better. The last month has been beyond words. Losing my girl Murli, when I didn’t even have any worry she would be going any time soon. We thought she’d live many many more years. I was always afraid of the day when she would pass. But I’m grateful that I’m surrounded by so much love and support, from everyone and my husband Ralph, as well as my other beloved kitties. They are giving me so much love and it helps a lot.

      I know we will be reunited once my time has come. But until then I’ll miss her for the rest of my life.

      Thank you so much again for visiting and leaving your thoughts. It means a lot to me.

      Love from us all! And purrs from the kitties ❤

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  16. I am so sorry for your loss. To lose a beloved member of your fur family is devastating, but for it to happen unexpectedly makes it even harder to bear. My thoughts are with you.
    (I came from BellaDharma’s blog on hearing your sad news.)

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    1. Thank you so much! It really is the hardest thing in the world, to lose a loved one. We thought Murli would have many many many more years ahead of her. I’m just glad she did no suffer. She simply fell asleep and never woke up again. It’s hard to come to terms with it all.

      I’m grateful to have so much kindness, support and love in my life from everyone, my husband and my other babies Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa.

      I went to your beautiful blog. It must have been so devastating for you as well as your boys passed. Eric and Flynn are beautiful Angels.

      Sending love, hugs and purrs ❤

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  17. We are so sorry that Murli was needed at the Bridge. Thank you for loving her so much, and so well. Sending you gentle purrs and prayers as you mourn your beloved kitty.

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    1. Thank you so so much! I would have never expected Murli to leave so soon. We thought she would have many many more years ahead of her. I’m always going to love her and miss her for the rest of my life. I’m sure she’s happy and there is no sadness on the other side of the bridge. I also think that time has not the same meaning there, so it might just feel like a short time for her, until we are reunited again, once my life ends. She’s in my heart forever.

      I’m grateful she did not suffer when she left. She simply went to sleep and did not wake up anymore. I’m also grateful I have so much support and love in my life from everyone, and my husband Ralph and my other furbabies Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa. I spend so much time with all kitties, day and night. They give me so much love and they understand. I love them so much as well, and I fill their lives with love and happiness.

      Thank you again, it means so much to receive all these kind and understanding words.
      Love and purrs ❤

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    1. Thank you so much Resa!
      It’s so difficult. I know you totally understand. I wish they would live with us forever!
      I love her so much, and I’ll keep missing her for the rest of my life. I’m so lucky to have so much love and support in my life from everyone.

      The kitties Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa are giving me so much love too and keep me distracted. I make sure they have their lives filled with nothing but love, cuddles, fun and everything good. I love them so much too.

      We’re sending love and purrs ❤

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  18. Oh sweetheart, I’m so sorry that I’m this late in responding to this post. My deepest heartfelt sympathies are with you. How are you doing?

    I completely understand where you’re coming from. I felt this very same way about my Shug and had her cremated as well. It was the hardest thing I’d ever done and that’s saying something. They are our children and a piece of our hearts goes with them.

    Truly, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I am sending lots of love your way and hopes that each day brings more peace to your broken heart. 🤗

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