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Hello my dear friends, I’m so sorry to tell you that Samantha has passed as well

This year has been and still is one of the most difficult ones yet in my life, due to the combination of frightening changes in our world and country, and heartbreaking losses of two of our sweet furbabies.

Samantha has passed on Wednesday, December 15, 2021 at 14:45, reuniting with her sweet brother Sonic and my girl Murli.

Beautiful Samantha October 17, 2021

I don’t know where to start. Samantha has had IBD (Inflammatory Bowels Disease) and after being perfectly stable and well for years, she’s had a flare up of the disease in early fall, out of the blue. We will never know what triggered it, as there had been no changes in her medication, food or even or any other events in our life. Nothing stressful happened at that time.

But ever since then, I went to the Vet countless times with her and I myself was there to pick up medications constantly. The Vet and I tried everything. Even ordered medications from outside of Austria to try after all the traditional ones didn’t help. We tried using medications off label with the Vet, as some of them have shown to help at times. All in combination with supplements, beneficial gut bacteria and various diets.

Though, nothing helped. Not even a little. Her condition kept getting worse and she kept losing weight no matter how much she ate, and she ate constantly.

We tried using injections to get a handle on the inflammation and cramps, but nothing helped. I gave her subcutaneous injections and drips myself at home. The Vet Lady had already taught me how to do that with Sonic.

The speed at which Samantha got worst increased as well. In the last 10 days, she started to eat every hour. I would fill up her bowl and she ate it all up, and wanted some more, which she always got. Then about an hour or so later, she would ask me for food again. So I fed her basically day and night in the end. Poor baby became so restless, and was up and down of the bed, or any other place she wanted to curl up at. But she would get up again within a short time.

On Monday morning I found her sitting by her water fountain, from which she normally drank all the time, but she seemed as if she forgot how to drink. Samantha would touch the water with her nose and acted as if she expected to get water that way. Then she would lift her head back up and look around confused. Soon later she started crying by the water, because she wanted to drink but could not.

I fed her water with the syringe, just like I did with Sonic and I kept her hydrated with drips, but she would cry by the water despite it all. I tried a number of different fountains and water bowls, with different levels of water, to see if anything helps. I even tried plates and put the fountains and water bowls higher up, so that Samantha would have the water right at the mouth level. Though to no avail.

The worst was seeing just how unhappy she seemed and she was in pain, despite pain medication. Her diarrhoea was becoming so frequent, it was heartbreaking. So Ralph and I knew we only had one choice left. We did not want her to suffer any worse than she already did.

I called our Vet on Tuesday morning to talk to her and we decided that she would come by our home to put Samantha to sleep the next day. She was going to call us before she would come, to talk again. But over night and the next morning, it became even more clear that there was no other choice left, as Samantha kept getting worse still.

Both Ralph and I were in a horrible state already, knowing what was to come. I ran about with my heart already broken and I could not even describe the sadness I felt and feel if I tried.

The last hours I just kept feeding her, because she was so hungry.

As the time came and our Vet was on her way, I closed the door to the rest of the apartment and stayed with Samantha in the kitchen and hallway area. Ralph could not bear to witness it, as he had to be with so many other of his beloved furbabies when they were put to sleep and these memories are still haunting him to this day.

Samantha knew the Vet Lady well and was never worried or afraid of her. So when she came, she stayed perfectly calm, acting normally and even had a few more bites to eat.

For a while we were just hanging out and talking to each other and Samantha. The Vet comforted Samantha and was so sweet to her, just like she always is.

All I want to say is that Samantha fell asleep without a hint of fear or stress visible. She fell asleep very quickly, while I held her head, so she could see me. At the same time she was also able to see the beautiful garden she always loved to look out to and she saw the sun setting with a beautiful red light in the clouds.

The rest is a blur again and I can’t even describe how I spent the rest of the evening and night. I just cried constantly. I didn’t want to call the Pet Crematory right away and decided to call them the next day and arrange a pick up for the afternoon.

I needed some time and I wanted to make sure Samantha has enough time to realise what has happened and let go of her body. I didn’t want her following her body in confusion if the pick up happened so soon after her passing.

I pray she’s reunited with Sonic and Murli now. I’m still being split between knowing that it was the right decision and wondering if Samantha feels betrayed. Because she didn’t expect to lose her life that day, even though she was very unwell. I pray she’s happy now, because the pain is gone and she’s whole again and able to do whatever she wants. I pray there is help on the other side, to make sure they are alright and that they are helped if they are disoriented or confused.

That deep pain in my heart will stay for a long time, but I am glad that Samantha and Sonic are in the same realm again. These two belong together.

Samantha was and is such a wonderful special kitty girl. An absolute beauty, with her stunning green big eyes in which you can get lost in. She had the longest purr ever, going on and on and on every time she came to bed and we went to sleep. She was Ralph’s little girl. And became my little girl as well. I wish I would have gotten to know Ralph many years sooner, but I am eternally grateful for the years I got to have with Samantha and Sonic. They made their bond with me, which will keep us connected no matter how many years will pass, until we are finally reunited again, all of us.

The following photo was taken on Saturday, December 11, 2021. Samantha and Sonic were always smaller than Murli, and grown up Hero and Lisa. But because she was getting so thin, Samantha seems even more tiny in this photo. She loved to hang out in that basket during the day. The photo on the wall above Samantha is of Sonic btw. I took it myself in Spain, when Sonic was on his way to the front balcony. Ralph always love this picture.

Hero, Lisa and Samantha

For the moment, I’m trying to distract myself from the pain as much as possible. I can’t really sleep right and haven’t really been sleeping right since Sonic passed. I just miss them both so painfully.

But I distract myself by pouring all my heart and love on Ralph, Hero and Lisa. Helping and comforting them, helps me as well.

I’m very sorry for being gone for most of the year, having only done a few posts. This whole year was a mess. I’ll post again before the holidays.

Thank you all for still coming to this little blog and for leaving all your wonderful comments. It means a lot to me. Ralph also reads all of the comments.

Sending you love and blessings.

18 thoughts on “Hello my dear friends, I’m so sorry to tell you that Samantha has passed as well

  1. So sorry to hear she passed too. You’ve had a rough year with cats. Our sympathies go out to you and your family.
    I know it’s early but will you get any more cats?
    May you cherish the memories of the cats you lost. In time the pain will ease but you’ll never forget them. They’re just like family.
    Merry Christmas
    Crystal And Daisy Mae

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    1. Hey Crystal and sweet Daisy Mae!
      Thank you so much for your kind comment and your thoughts.
      Oh really, what a year. The heartbreak these past months is just too much. We miss Sonic and Samantha.

      Yes, we’ll definitely adopt more kitties. Hero and Lisa need more feline family members, they love other cats. They really miss Sonic and Samantha. And I need a home full of cats to love. There are so many who desperately need homes. And I want to save some of them.

      Exactly, they are family. Each of them totally unique and unforgettable.

      Thank you again and may your Christmas be lovely and happy with your sweet Daisy Mae! Lots of love from us all!

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  2. Devastating news for you and Ralph, Natascha. So sorry to hear it. May 2022 be a happier year for you (and the rest of us). All this Covid crap is bad enough without personal tragedies as well.

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    1. Thank you so much Al. Yes truly, what a crappy year for everyone. You are right, that Covid crap is enough by itself already. It needs so end. Hopefully, 2022 will be a better year for all of us, everywhere.

      We wish you a lovely and peaceful Christmas, despite all the awfulness with Covid.

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  3. It is so sad to hear about your loss. I cried reading this. I feel for you. It is however a relief of the suffering. Your kitties had/have a wonderful life with you and Ralph fro a long time. You enjoyed having them all and now she is reunited over the Rainbow bridge with the others.
    May 2022 be an easier year to all of us. Big hugs to you and Ralph ♥♥♥

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  4. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss of Samantha. Know that she is at peace now and let your memories sustain you through the days ahead.

    Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together….

    Author unknown…

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    1. Hey Barb! I thank you so much, and Ralph says thank you as well. Your kind comment and the beautiful text of the unknown Author you shared touched me deeply. What a beautiful writing. I hope that it is like this for all of the furbabies who left the physical world.

      I know for sure they live on, just like everyone does. Just like humans, our kitties live on as the same kitty they were in life, with all memories, personality and all bonds of love with others intact. The physical body really is just the physical vehicle to carry us through the physical life.

      That’s why I hope it really is like in the text and that Samantha arrived on the other side without confusion and worry, surrounded by the pure love of God, where she will not feel any sadness and fear and where time does not flow in the same way. Because what will be a life time for us, might just feel like a few days for Samantha.

      Thank you so much again, what you wrote means so much to me.
      Sending love from us all!

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  5. I am so sorry to hear of your most recent loss. What a difficult year this has been for you and Ralph. As Christmas and the new year approach, I wish for you the blessings of peace as you reflect on the happy memories of your sweet kitties that have now crossed the rainbow bridge. I know you will always miss them.

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  6. We stopped by to pick up a picture of your sweet angel Samantha for our bloggie to remember all the beautiful Souls at the end of the year, and we’re again very touched by the story again😿It’s to bad that we don’t have them for a life long with us. She’ll be dearly missed, my furriends, and we treasure all the beautiful memories we had when we saw all of them on the bloggies💗Take good care of yourself Samantha, Ralph and sweet kitties. We think of you a lot. Extra Soft Pawkisses for now and for a better 2022. It’s getting better, I purromise🐾😽💞

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  7. Hi Natascha,
    I am so sorry for your losses. I cannot even imagine the pain. Sending you thoughts and prayers for comfort.
    They had a wonderful life with you guys, and they are all reunited and pain free.
    Many blessings to you, Raph, Hero and Lisa!

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    1. Hi my dear friend! Thank you so much, from both of us, for your wonderful comment, your prayers and thoughts. I’ve really left my head hanging these last weeks since Samantha. It’s helping to know that Sonic and Samantha are reunited again and without any pain and perfectly healthy. Thank you so much! Ralph, the kitties Hero and Lisa, and I, send you all our love and blessings too!

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