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Update – We are in a bit of a situation – Maybe you have ideas or can help

Hey my dear friends!

It’s been months again… Where do I even start?

First off, we’re ok mostly and the cats Hero and Lisa are perfectly fine and happy. Ralph has a bad back, after a sneeze, which triggered his old injury to hurt again. I had a very hard time coming to terms with the loss of Sonic and Samantha. I’m finally coming to a better place emotionally though. Aside from the physical problems, we would be perfectly fine. Our life would have gone on as usual, without any problems or additional worries.

But, you have probably heard about Austria implementing a general V mandate for all adults. They first announced this in mid November and it came as an absolute shock. I would have never in a million years expected this. I expected the continuation of the restrictions for not having the V, but not this. (I don’t want to write the word out on purpose, as the backlash can be very severe for saying anything about it.)

We didn’t even know how this mandate law would manifest in the end. For a while, they were even talking about jail time in addition to fines, and then about jail of up to one year, if people are unable to pay. The protest from the wider population was enormous since then and has only kept growing since. Everyone was hoping that the parliament would not vote this mandate into law. Especially because at the time many countries started easing or even ending restrictions and mandates. Also in January it was pretty much known that the V does not prevent injection, so implementing a mandate with the argument that the V would stop transmission, seemed to be unlikely. But, despite everything, despite many law suits that had been filed and the massive continued protest, the parliament voted the mandate into law.

The mandate and the fines: Starting March 15, the government will send out fines to every adult who is found to not have had a V or not to be up to date on their latest V.

The Cov V is now mandatory for all adults. Only pregnant women are exempt from punishment for the duration of their pregnancy. Any adult, who has not had any V, or hasn’t gone for their 2nd or 3rd, will receive large fines, 4 times a year. As with other fines and debts to the government, if people can’t pay, it will be automatically taken from their pay checks, or a government Repo person comes to take anything of worth from your home and possessions. But the jail time is off the table.

The fines are 600€ (679$ or 506£) for each adult and that 4 times a year. So just the first fine for us both will ad up to 1200€. If you try to fight it in court, the fine automatically increases to 3600€, for court costs they say.

Our reasons for not wanting the V: We had decided long before this, that we didn’t want to get this particular type of V for this illness, due to the increased risk from our existing chronic conditions: For me, it’s my chronic migraine, an auto immune disorder (Psoriasis which also affects my joints), Sciatica and a history of blood clots and strokes in my family and chronic fatigue.

For Ralph it’s the Essential Tremor, also Psoriasis, to a lesser degree than mine, and problems in his back with a pinched nerve due to an accident years ago.

After studying the adverse event databases for months, I only found our initial worries confirmed, as neurological adverse events, basically anything related to the nerves, auto immune conditions and cardio vascular issues are the most common. The risk that my migraine would get worse and becomes untreatable is too much of a risk to take, plus the risk of my other issues. The same is true for Ralph’s Essential Tremor. He is already frustrated to be limited in so many things he would like to do. The risk of this condition to get even worse is also too much of a risk. Basically, our risk benefit ratio is clearly pointing in the direction of not having the V.

Despite our issues, we have one thing in common that is working exceptionally well. Our immune system. We rarely get sick. I can’t remember when I last had the actual flu. We also take the right supplements to make sure everything works as best as it can and we are at home the vast majority of our time, besides me going out for errands, my doctors appointments, the pharmacy and the Vet.

There is no possibility for us to get a medical exemption, since there are only 3 medical reasons that can be exempted, and they do not include ours. Though, even if you have one of the few conditions, except for the pregnancy one, you’ll be unlikely to find a doctor willing to write one for the other two reasons, since they are too afraid to be punished, as it happened to so many of them already.

There are no religions exemptions or deeply held personal convictions.

The financial side: There were a lot of expenses in 2021, trying to save Sonic and Samantha, which would not have been a problem, but we didn’t expect the insane expenses with these mandate fines. It’s going to be a huge problem and it will ruin us.

This is why I am reaching out for help after all. I have a little support page for my blog, if anyone is able to help with even just tiny donations: buymeacoffee.com/CatladyNatascha

I was initially waiting in hope for the mandate to be repealed, but nothing has happened.

Our plan for this year: Pay the first fines and hope the mandate will be repealed during that time, due to the problems it will cause. The courts won’t even be able to cope with all these fines and cases and most people will end up losing their homes since they will not be able to pay.

If the mandate is not struck down by mid summer, we will have to make plans to move to another country. This will require even more funds. So I hope to God we will not have to move out of country and only move to the country side within the country, as the rent is cheaper there and things are a bit safer.

To keep you all updated: I am going to start posting small updates throughout the week, to share how we are doing and how things are going. Not just upsetting things or worries, but the cats and their cuteness and just our everyday life to connect with you all. Especially because I know how so many of you miss hearing from Ralph.

I can’t even express how uncomfortable it feels to me to even ask for help. And any help so much appreciated! Don’t worry if you can’t help financially, most people haven’t got much after these last two years. But maybe by sharing my post, someone who can help and wants to help will see it. Maybe you have other ideas for us! And we absolutely love all your wonderful comments! This is why I am glad to have a little bit more energy again, to start posting small updates throughout the week to connect back with all of you and stay in contact. I miss you all.

I’ll post a proper normal update tomorrow.

The support links

Here is the link to my Buy me a Coffee: buymeacoffee.com/CatladyNatascha

(I went back into this post, to delete the fundraising link, since I deleted the fundraiser itself, after the gov at temporarily suspended the compulsory jab mandate.)

Feel free to use either of them, or contact me if you prefer a PayPal link.

You can’t share my blog link on FB anymore unfortunately, because months ago, when I posted a video of the kitties that also had my blog link in it, FB decided to call it spam and ban it. I disputed it right away, but they never reacted to it. No matter how many times I tried to contact them about it, it was ignored.

Thank you so much if you read all the way down to this point. Ralph, the kitties and I send you lots of hugs and love! Hope you all are doing well and everything is fine!

Love, Natascha

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Hello my dear friends, I’m so sorry to tell you that Samantha has passed as well

This year has been and still is one of the most difficult ones yet in my life, due to the combination of frightening changes in our world and country, and heartbreaking losses of two of our sweet furbabies.

Samantha has passed on Wednesday, December 15, 2021 at 14:45, reuniting with her sweet brother Sonic and my girl Murli.

Beautiful Samantha October 17, 2021

I don’t know where to start. Samantha has had IBD (Inflammatory Bowels Disease) and after being perfectly stable and well for years, she’s had a flare up of the disease in early fall, out of the blue. We will never know what triggered it, as there had been no changes in her medication, food or even or any other events in our life. Nothing stressful happened at that time.

But ever since then, I went to the Vet countless times with her and I myself was there to pick up medications constantly. The Vet and I tried everything. Even ordered medications from outside of Austria to try after all the traditional ones didn’t help. We tried using medications off label with the Vet, as some of them have shown to help at times. All in combination with supplements, beneficial gut bacteria and various diets.

Though, nothing helped. Not even a little. Her condition kept getting worse and she kept losing weight no matter how much she ate, and she ate constantly.

We tried using injections to get a handle on the inflammation and cramps, but nothing helped. I gave her subcutaneous injections and drips myself at home. The Vet Lady had already taught me how to do that with Sonic.

The speed at which Samantha got worst increased as well. In the last 10 days, she started to eat every hour. I would fill up her bowl and she ate it all up, and wanted some more, which she always got. Then about an hour or so later, she would ask me for food again. So I fed her basically day and night in the end. Poor baby became so restless, and was up and down of the bed, or any other place she wanted to curl up at. But she would get up again within a short time.

On Monday morning I found her sitting by her water fountain, from which she normally drank all the time, but she seemed as if she forgot how to drink. Samantha would touch the water with her nose and acted as if she expected to get water that way. Then she would lift her head back up and look around confused. Soon later she started crying by the water, because she wanted to drink but could not.

I fed her water with the syringe, just like I did with Sonic and I kept her hydrated with drips, but she would cry by the water despite it all. I tried a number of different fountains and water bowls, with different levels of water, to see if anything helps. I even tried plates and put the fountains and water bowls higher up, so that Samantha would have the water right at the mouth level. Though to no avail.

The worst was seeing just how unhappy she seemed and she was in pain, despite pain medication. Her diarrhoea was becoming so frequent, it was heartbreaking. So Ralph and I knew we only had one choice left. We did not want her to suffer any worse than she already did.

I called our Vet on Tuesday morning to talk to her and we decided that she would come by our home to put Samantha to sleep the next day. She was going to call us before she would come, to talk again. But over night and the next morning, it became even more clear that there was no other choice left, as Samantha kept getting worse still.

Both Ralph and I were in a horrible state already, knowing what was to come. I ran about with my heart already broken and I could not even describe the sadness I felt and feel if I tried.

The last hours I just kept feeding her, because she was so hungry.

As the time came and our Vet was on her way, I closed the door to the rest of the apartment and stayed with Samantha in the kitchen and hallway area. Ralph could not bear to witness it, as he had to be with so many other of his beloved furbabies when they were put to sleep and these memories are still haunting him to this day.

Samantha knew the Vet Lady well and was never worried or afraid of her. So when she came, she stayed perfectly calm, acting normally and even had a few more bites to eat.

For a while we were just hanging out and talking to each other and Samantha. The Vet comforted Samantha and was so sweet to her, just like she always is.

All I want to say is that Samantha fell asleep without a hint of fear or stress visible. She fell asleep very quickly, while I held her head, so she could see me. At the same time she was also able to see the beautiful garden she always loved to look out to and she saw the sun setting with a beautiful red light in the clouds.

The rest is a blur again and I can’t even describe how I spent the rest of the evening and night. I just cried constantly. I didn’t want to call the Pet Crematory right away and decided to call them the next day and arrange a pick up for the afternoon.

I needed some time and I wanted to make sure Samantha has enough time to realise what has happened and let go of her body. I didn’t want her following her body in confusion if the pick up happened so soon after her passing.

I pray she’s reunited with Sonic and Murli now. I’m still being split between knowing that it was the right decision and wondering if Samantha feels betrayed. Because she didn’t expect to lose her life that day, even though she was very unwell. I pray she’s happy now, because the pain is gone and she’s whole again and able to do whatever she wants. I pray there is help on the other side, to make sure they are alright and that they are helped if they are disoriented or confused.

That deep pain in my heart will stay for a long time, but I am glad that Samantha and Sonic are in the same realm again. These two belong together.

Samantha was and is such a wonderful special kitty girl. An absolute beauty, with her stunning green big eyes in which you can get lost in. She had the longest purr ever, going on and on and on every time she came to bed and we went to sleep. She was Ralph’s little girl. And became my little girl as well. I wish I would have gotten to know Ralph many years sooner, but I am eternally grateful for the years I got to have with Samantha and Sonic. They made their bond with me, which will keep us connected no matter how many years will pass, until we are finally reunited again, all of us.

The following photo was taken on Saturday, December 11, 2021. Samantha and Sonic were always smaller than Murli, and grown up Hero and Lisa. But because she was getting so thin, Samantha seems even more tiny in this photo. She loved to hang out in that basket during the day. The photo on the wall above Samantha is of Sonic btw. I took it myself in Spain, when Sonic was on his way to the front balcony. Ralph always love this picture.

Hero, Lisa and Samantha

For the moment, I’m trying to distract myself from the pain as much as possible. I can’t really sleep right and haven’t really been sleeping right since Sonic passed. I just miss them both so painfully.

But I distract myself by pouring all my heart and love on Ralph, Hero and Lisa. Helping and comforting them, helps me as well.

I’m very sorry for being gone for most of the year, having only done a few posts. This whole year was a mess. I’ll post again before the holidays.

Thank you all for still coming to this little blog and for leaving all your wonderful comments. It means a lot to me. Ralph also reads all of the comments.

Sending you love and blessings.

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Our beloved Sonic passed away

Sonic, autumn 2020

Beloved Sonic passed away at 2:10am on October 27, 2021.

He was one strong boy, never gave up and kept hanging on to life until his very last breath. He was not alone, not even for a second. It was obvious that something was not right and that he was close to passing away. I carried him around with me if I had to go into another room, because I didn’t want to leave him for even a minute. When it was time to go to bed, I took Sonic with me and laid him into our bed, where he had slept all those years. But I didn’t put him into his basket that was on our bed, and instead right by my side, with hot water bottles, a his little pillow for his head and covered him with a blanket.

I kept the bedside light on, so he could see me and know where he was. All 3, Samantha, Hero and Lisa kept checking on Sonic, sniffing all over his body and licking his head. Again and again. They knew something was wrong. I kept holding his paw, stroking his head, just like he had always loved. That way I stayed with him until he stopped breathing at about 2:10am.

Up until this last day, Sonic was still walking after me, and out onto the balcony, enjoying the lovely warm afternoon sun. He loved lying in his big basket in the living room, while watching the pigeons fly back and forth in front of the window.

Lisa (left) and Sonic

He was always with one or all of us. Sonic was either following me, wandering around a bit, or staying with Ralph in the living room when I was out of the house, or I took him into the bedroom with me when I went to bed. Samantha, Hero and Lisa were also always close by somewhere.

In our living room

During the day, Sonic was in this basket (the one in the pic below), which I made as soft as a cloud, with a soft pillow for humans underneath him and another cushion at the back, so that it was soft all around him. In addition, I put hot water bottles in this basket, just body warm, but it kept him lovely warm and comfy. Ralph and the other kitties were usually all in the living room as well, hanging out like you can see in the pic above.

Sonic in his new basket, which I got for him just two weeks earlier

Lisa and Hero gave Sonic cuddles all the time. These three were friends right from the start. It was the sweetest thing.

Sonic, Hero and Lisa
Sonic and Hero (I’m sorry it was just so dark when I took these pictures)

As you can probably see in the previous 3 pics, I had made Sonic a little coat, because the fall started and he was thin. I just wanted him to be warm at all times. Sonic was one of those kitties who didn’t mind things like that at all. In fact he seemed to like it and feel comfy.

Lisa constantly gave Sonic a little wash on the head. Basically any time the two crossed paths in the home. Hero and Lisa gave him big head bonks and cuddles every time they were together. Sonic would give them a little wash on their heads as well. Samantha did the same when she and Sonic crossed paths. That sweet boy was so loved by everyone, just as Murli was.

Samantha and Sonic
Sonic and Hero
Sonic’s pureed meat, his water and in the back, boiled chicken breast, cut into tiny bits, which he loved to eat on his own

Sonic would eat on his own, but it was not enough, even though he was hungry. That’s why I had to feed him with the syringe. He loved being fed really. If I was too slow and waited too long for him to swallow, he would move his head towards the syringe, to let me know he was ready for another mouth full.

He would come up to me, letting me know he wanted some food, or come into the kitchen, sitting down at the same spot every time, which meant he wanted some food.

This is how he would look at me when he wanted food

Like in the two pictures above, Sonic would either sit in the kitchen, or anywhere else, looking up at me like in the pictures… Which meant: “Feed me!”

Sonic drank on his own, but I always gave him a little additional water to make sure he was hydrated properly. I would feed him every two hours, making sure that his stomach was never empty. Because he would get nauseous if his tummy was empty for longer than 3 hours. I would feed him right before I went to sleep. I also had some chicken breast with me in the bed, in that container. He would wake me up if he was hungry during the night and I would let him eat.

I would also feed him the pureed meat during the night with the syringe if he was hungry, or if I saw that it was time for a feeding, if he didn’t wake me. I usually fed him at midnight, then again around 2:30am and then again around 5:30am, go back to sleep and get up at 7:30 and feed him again and so on during the day.

Now I feel so sad that I don’t have to wake up to feed Sonic during the night anymore. I would have kept doing this for many more years and would have gotten up even more often if it would have been needed. There was literally nothing I would not have done to help him.

And I would do the same for all of my sweet kitties.

In the end, Sonic lived as long as he possibly could with his condition. His will to live had no limit. Even during his last moments I knew that he would rather stay with us. Though I’m sure that once his beautiful soul left his ailing body, he must have felt relief. He must have been so amazed to be able to hear, and to feel strong again and without the weakness of his body holding him back. I pray that he is in peace and with Murli and the others. I pray he isn’t frightened and confused at what happened and that he was helped to the light.

The rest of that night

I laid Sonic’s body into our kitty pram and put a blanket on him like always, just as if he was sleeping. I kept the pram by my bedside. There was no sleeping really. But the hours till the morning were just a blur. I got up at 7am and called the pet crematory, which I had also called for Murli, almost two years ago.

I’m glad they exist, as they are very kind and everything they do they do with the utmost respect and thought. The few hours until the man from the pet crematory arrived were a blur yet again. I just cried all the time. Before Sonic was due to be picked up, I gave him one last brush.

I also asked if Sonic could keep his little coat and thankfully he could, since it was just wool.

It was difficult to give away his body, just like it was with Murli.

In a few weeks, I’ll be able to pick up his urn. It always takes a few weeks, because his urn has to be ordered as they are handmade. It was the same with sweet Murli.

What was wrong with Sonic’s health

For a long time we didn’t really know what exactly was wrong with him physically. He started having issues with his digestion in 2018 and suddenly started having constipation problems. Though, with a change in diet, fibre and beneficial supplements, it was going well, aside from a few occasions where we went to the Vet if he had problems, which were thankfully resolved easily. Otherwise he was perfectly healthy.

Then in January 2021, his weight started dropping quickly and he was not eating enough by himself. So we went to the Vet with him a few times back then and found out that his digestive system was not working well enough and not absorbing enough nutrients and not metabolising everything properly.

He got enzymes I was to add to every meal, supplements and other good things for his digestion to help with it. Like I wrote above, I fed him a liquid diet with syringes, on top of what he ate by himself. The pureed meat was high in calories and nutrients, but easily digestible. That his meals were mostly liquid, helped his body digest the food better as well.

Doing all of this, he lived as long as possible. His body had reached a point, where his digestive system could not absorb enough anymore to stay alive. No matter how much food he would have gotten, or how nutritious it was, his body could not absorb any of it anymore.

Now

I’m thankful for every moment and every day I had with Sonic. I always wish they could stay with us forever, or at least for much much longer. Each kitty is so unique and special, such a blessing on our lives. It’s so difficult to get used to Sonic not being here anymore. During the first couple of days, I still kept turning around from my desk, with the intention to check on Sonic, who would have been behind me in his basket. Or I woke up with the intention to feed Sonic.

Ralph and the kitties are also very sad. Everyone misses Sonic painfully. We’re now trying to adjust.

For me, the days are still as if I’m in some absent minded blur most of the time. I keep just staring into nothing for quite a while, and often my mind just feels totally blank.

Though I’ve been showering Samantha, Hero and Lisa in even more cuddles than I had done anyway. I’m trying to distract myself with podcasts and I focus on Ralph and the kitties and making them happy.

I’m also wanting to get into posting again properly. I know it would help a lot to connect and keep up with all of you wonderful people.

There is so much I need to write about regarding the last months since spring and how things were. But that will all be in a separate, or even a couple separate posts.

Thank you for still visiting and reading my blog.

Love, Natascha, Ralph, Samantha, Lisa and Hero

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Is it really Fall already?

Because it looks and feels like fall for us here. The leaves are dropping faster and faster and the days are getting shorter, the nights decidedly colder. We had to put the heating on over two weeks ago, for the most part only for the nights though. Thankfully, on most days the afternoons are still warm enough for the kitties to spend a few hours out on the catio.

What we’ve been up to since the last time

Ralph and I needed some more storage space for all our combined stuff in our home. We especially wanted a storage unit for the living room. But the furniture we saw in the stores were not really what we liked. So I went to look for a storage unit from private sellers. There is a very large site in Austria with all sorts of categories of stuff that people are selling. You can find just about anything there. The only problem is you have to pick it up yourself, which isn’t all that easy with large pieces of furniture.

Minutes into me browsing the site for storage units, I saw countless beautiful pieces for a very good price. One advert was especially great since the seller also provided transport for a small charge!

It was a lovely Lady who had to sell a bunch of her things because they were moving into a smaller home and had to get rid of a few large things. So, two weeks ago, the Ladies son and one of his friends came with their huge truck and delivered the storage unit to us! The unit comes in two separate pieces, the top and the bottom. The two guys brought them in and put it together for us. It was all done within a few minutes.

And here it is!

Of course, Hero and Lisa, who are terrified of strangers, were hiding. Samantha didn’t care too much and Sonic didn’t notice anything, since he was outside on the balcony with Ralph.

I had been hoping Hero and Lisa would stay out on the balcony with Ralph, as well, where they would not have noticed as much. It didn’t even take long for Hero to come back out!

Sonic followed Ralph into the living room and had quite the surprise to see the new storage unit there! As you know, Sonic is completely deaf, so he really had no idea anything was going on while he was out on the balcony with Ralph. Hero and Sonic were first to inspect everything!

Samantha came out soon afterwards, and Hero coaxed his sister Lisa out a few minutes later.

The first thing I did was to move Murli’s urn into its new spot in the storage unit. Finally, I had a safe pace for her, where I could also see the urn all the time.

Murli’s urn and her paw print in a clay heart below

Next to Murli’s urn are her favourite mousie, her wooden toy ball, her valerian root cushion, and below is her paw print in a clay heart, that the lovely people from the pet crematory made for me back then. It feels good to be able to honour her physical remains in that way. I know her beautiful soul is watching us sometimes. One day, we will all be reunited again.

Ralph and Hero ❤

That’s my view now when I move my head to the right from my desk ❤️ Hero loves to hang out on Ralph’s desk, and also loves to walk all over his keyboard…

Continuing my crochet and starting to sew!

You might remember that I started to crochet a curtain with a cat motive at the end of last year?

This is what it will look like, although mine will be wider, to fit our window in the living room.

I was working on it at the end of 2019 and when Murli passed, I lost all motivation for anything. I just felt too sad to engage in any of my hobbies. Only by the end of this summer did I finally feel all the motivation come back, to engage in the little hobbies I love again.

In addition, I wanted to learn how to sew my own clothes, as well as mend things and create toys for the cats. Luckily I found a lovely sewing machine and ordered it!

This sewing machine had some really great reviews and wasn’t expensive. Of course, the bag I chose for it has kitties on it!

I also have a few sewing patterns for a dress and a top, that are rather easy and for beginners. I sewed before, just easy little things, but that was over 15 years ago.

Covid

We’ve been at home ever since the beginning of Covid. Ralph does not want to take a chance with anything, just in case. I only left to go buy what we need, go to the doctor for my regular prescriptions and pick up meds for Sonic and Samantha at the Vet. It’s not much different to me than any other year, since I am so limited by how much I can do physically in a day, due to the chronic migraine and fatigue. But I do really miss going for little walks with Ralph.

I’ve only been out for fun about 3 times since August, and that was to visit my best friend Conny and her two kitties.

The current data for Austria

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/austria/

Today

I can’t believe it’s the 8th of October already, because this year went by faster than all the years before. And the previous years felt like they were over in a flash already!

Samantha on the window sill, Sonic on the kitty tree, Lisa on the bed near the tree, and flopped out Hero on the bed.

We had another sunny and warm afternoon. But as soon as the sun is gone, it gets chilly quickly. Some days were cold despite the sun, then the 4 kitties go into the bedroom to soak in the sun. Now that the bed is right beside the window, they absolutely LOVE it. They can lie around in the sun and see the birds while on the bed.

Cuddling up with cats

During the night, I usually have Sonic to my right, with his head next to mine on the pillow and my hand on his side. That’s how he cuddles up every time I go to bed. Lisa and Hero will either sleep along or on my legs, or one of the two will sleep way up on the left side of my head, leaning onto my pillow. Samantha will usually stay to my right and when Ralph comes to bed, she’ll cuddle up on his legs.

My only problem is that I get a bit hot sometimes with all the kitties around me…

I’ll end this post now, but I’ll post another one soon. I will go catch up on all of your blogs now. I hope all your furbabies and yourselves are well!

Ralph, the kitties and I send love to all! Take care!

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Our last weeks of December 2019

Hello my absolutely wonderful friends! It took me all that time to finish my post… Unbelievable, but our days just have been that way, where I can’t get anything finished, because so many other things had to be done.

I really have to thank you all again, just so that you know how much all of your kind messages and comments mean to me and how thankful I am for all that support and love.

December 18, 2019

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Hero

In the morning of December 18, 2019, little boy Hero had his neutering surgery. Everything went well and he did not seem to be in any pain at all. Just a bit tired and so he basically went to sleep not long after we arrived back home. Since we didn’t sleep much that night, we all just went to have a rest… Ralph, I and the cats in the bed.

At some point, I got woken up because my phone rang. It was the Crematory in Gleisdorf, where my sweet Murli had been cremated. Gleisdorf is a little less than half an hour away by car, depending on traffic. I was informed that I can pick up her Urn whenever I want. So I quickly looked up the times for the trains going to the town and told them I would arrive the next day at 11am. The Crematory is close to the train station.

December 19, 2019

In the morning, one of the first things I did was to finally free poor Samantha from her cone. I wanted her to be free of it and able to go to the toilet herself while I was gone for a few hours, to pick up Murli’s Urn in Gleisdorf.

Samantha simply looked exhausted after two weeks with the cone.

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Samantha after I removed her cone

Thankfully the train I had to take was one of the local trains, which stop at all the stations, including the one that’s near our home, so I didn’t have to go all the way to the main train station in Graz. It’s not even 5 minutes from us with my bicycle.

The train ride itself lasts about 30 minutes, but it feels much shorter. It goes through the countryside with lots of woods and is really lovely. The train arrived a few minutes before 11am and I walked straight to the close by Pet-Crematory.

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The Crematory Murli was cremated at

I thought I took many more photos from in front of the Crematory, but it seems the photos never saved on my phone. Something went wrong, which had probably more to do with the state I was in.

The sweet Lady I had already talked to one the one a few times greeted me as I walked in. It’s beautiful there. Much more beautiful than the Crematory for humans I’ve been to. It feels comforting as soon as you walk in. Friendly and warm. Not to mention that the people I had talked to and the sweet young man who picked up Murli, have been amazing. So understanding and kind. I knew about them for years and so I knew who to contact right away on the morning of Murli’s passing.

The Lady brought me to the room with Murli’s Urn. As soon as I got there, I greeted her as I always did with “Hey baby” and started crying right away. For quite a while. But they were just so kind there. They leave you alone, or stay with you, however you wish. You can also stay as long as you feel you need to before you leave with the Urn.

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Murli’s little urn. The certificate has all the information of the cremation on it, as well as my and Murli’s personal info. I also kept the rose and dried it. It’s now with Murli’s urn.

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Murli’s fur and her paw print on a ceramic heart

They offer to create a paw print on a ceramic and let you decide on the shape of it. I wanted it to be a heart, and the paw print in black, since Murli is a panfur with black paws. I had also asked them for some of Murli’s fur, back when I chose the Urn and paw print.

The Lady helped me to pack it up carefully, making sure it’s safe during my little travel back home. We also talked for a while, as she has cats herself and knows what it all feels like.

And so with Murli’s Urn safely with me, I went to catch the next train home. It definitely feels better now to have her urn back home with us.

It’s still going to be very difficult for quite a while, but that’s what I deal with within my own mind and soul. I want to be my normal and happy self for the other furkids, Samantha, Sonic, Lisa and Hero.

Everyone of you knows what it is like, so I don’t need, or even want to write about the sadness. Instead I want to remember and be grateful for every year, every day I got to spend with Murli my life. Murli was happiness, empathy, love and warmth all packed into a beautiful feline. All the kitties loved her right away. They all felt comfortable around her. When Hero and Lisa first came to us, and they were still absolutely frightened, they were for some reason feeling relaxed and less scared when they were near Murli. Her soul is alive and well and my bond with her will remain forever. I’m so grateful for my life with my beloved little family, which Murli will always remain part of.

Samantha

We worried a lot about Samantha too, as she was really unhappy with her cone. Also, we think any movement for her felt uncomfortable, since the cut was really deep, since the Vet had to make sure to get everything during her surgery, to make sure weird growth can restart in that spot.  Samantha was on pain meds of course, but it might still have been uncomfortable in some way.

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Me feeding Samantha with chicken, the only thing she would eat

Thankfully I was able to keep Samantha healthy during the whole two weeks with her cone; feeding her, giving her water with a syringe and carrying her to the toilet and everywhere else she wanted to be usually. Since she only ate chicken breast, I had to give her a supplement paste in the right amount, to make sure she still gets all the important nutrients and vitamins. When the day came to remove her stitches, Samantha was put on the scale and checked out properly. To my amazement, she had not lost any weight during that time and was well hydrated! The hydration was what I had worried about the most. I knew how much water an adult cat needs every day, and I tried my best to get as close to it as possible. Apparently it’s 50ml for every kg of body-weight.

Samantha started recovering from her ordeal and is doing really well again now. Her scar is healing up great! It’s wonderful to see her happy again.

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Samantha now

Christmas

To do something fun for the cats, I bought a little Christmas tree just for the balcony, so the cats have something interesting to smell at and investigate. They are only out for a few minutes at a time together with us, since it’s way too cold.

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Lisa (left) and Sonic

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Lisa

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Lisa is a little hidden on the left and Hero

The other decoration I had on the living room window, had been on there since the beginning of December. But I kept candles burning ever since the day Murli had passed. That’s what this window looks like:

Later I also put up a tiny little Christmas tree which I decorated and put somewhere Lisa and Hero can’t get to. Samantha and Sonic never tried anything too silly with our Christmas trees anyway.

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I bought that little tree where I had bought the bigger one for the balcony. It still smells lovely! Just for fun and because the cats need some decoration they like, I added some colourful mousies as well. Everyone got some nice Christmas gifts and tasty food. The weather station you can see behind the toys is what I got from Ralph for Christmas, since I’ve been wanting one for many years. It’s awesome!

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Toy mouse Christmas Decoration

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Hero trying to decide which toy to play with now

The cats are having fun with their new toys!

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Hero got to see the rail with the ball first, as the others were still sleeping

Hero and Lisa are great at playing together!

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Sonic and Hero

New Years

Their new toy was quite helpful in trying to distract the cats from all the noise from the fire crackers and fire works at midnight on new years eve! Sonic of course was not worried anyway, since he can’t hear, but Samantha, Hero and Lisa were worried. Though we did quite well in calming them down and making them feel safer. Luckily, it’s not as crazy where we are. It would be a different story right in the city centre.

I didn’t even look at the fire works, and instead stayed with the cats, comforting them.

The last sunset of 2019 was absolutely beautiful.

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And there we are, another year gone by. Actually, a whole decade gone by. But it does not feel like it’s been so long. Despite how fast the time goes by, I am thankful for every second of it. Every moment I got to spend with everyone I love. I am holding on and loving every moment I can spend with Ralph, Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa. And I’m thankful for every single friend I found through posting about Murli and about our life now.

Thank you all for every lovely word of yours and for continuing to visit, despite me not being able to keep up with my replies lots of times. Though I do read and appreciate every single one of them and I’ll reply, even if I’m late.

Ralph, the cats and myself, wish everyone of you happiness for the new year. Wishing good health and wellbeing for human and furry friends, and may everyone be able to spend as much time as they want and can with their loved ones.

Lots of love from us, and purrs from the kitties!

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Lisa and Hero with the red light of the sunset