Oh it was a long day! Especially for poor Lisa. I wanted to let you all know that she is fine and the surgery went fine, no problems.
I went to pick her up from the Vet at 4:45pm. It took a while though until we were able to leave, since there was a little emergency dog who was being treated, when I arrived. It was about an hour later than I finally got to pick up sweet little Lisa.
But I knew that everything was fine and she was doing well, so I didn’t have to worry.
Lisa was wide awake, and freaked out. She was struggling, so it wasn’t possible to put the pet shirt on her, that is her size and made for after surgeries, to prevent them getting to the surgery site. So for now all that was possible to quickly slip on was the dreaded cone.
Of course she’s upset about having a cone now. But I will try again tomorrow to put the protective garment on her, as at least she would be able to move freely and be able to use all her senses. With the cone, the whiskers are of no help, the hearing and especially the directional hearing is impaired, as well as her view.
I wish it would be easier to put something like that on a kitty.
I will let you know how it goes and how Lisa is doing over the next days.
Anyway, I am going to bed now. Lisa is staying quiet on the window in the bedroom, one of her favourite spots. She’ll come into the bed later I’m sure.
I’m just glad that both, Hero and now Lisa had their neutering / spraying surgery behind them. Now we look forward to when Lisa is healed up and won’t need a cone or protective garment.
Good night from us! Lots of love, and thanks so much for all your lovely comments! Will be replying as soon as I can.
Lisa and I are in the waiting room at our Vet right now. It’s busy too! So I guess her surgery will be after 1pm or so.
It was an anxious morning if course. Lisa wasn’t allowed to eat, and so I couldn’t really feed the others easily and had to be really sneaky about it. I basically just gave them all little snacks when Lisa was in the other end of the apartment.
I was shaking all morning like always before I have to bring one of them to the Vet. Especially when I have to put them in the carrier. Since they all sense that something is off about me, they get panicky as soon as I pick them up. Any other time I pick them up they’re perfectly relaxed.
My heart is still beating like crazy, and I just hope we will be called in soon.
I will calm down as soon as I get the call from the Vet that the surgery went fine and that Lisa is doing well. Until then I am going to be all over the place, as I always am, especially with the girls when they have their surgery.
I’ll update as soon as I have her safely back home.
Hello my absolutely wonderful friends! It took me all that time to finish my post… Unbelievable, but our days just have been that way, where I can’t get anything finished, because so many other things had to be done.
I really have to thank you all again, just so that you know how much all of your kind messages and comments mean to me and how thankful I am for all that support and love.
December 18, 2019
In the morning of December 18, 2019, little boy Hero had his neutering surgery. Everything went well and he did not seem to be in any pain at all. Just a bit tired and so he basically went to sleep not long after we arrived back home. Since we didn’t sleep much that night, we all just went to have a rest… Ralph, I and the cats in the bed.
At some point, I got woken up because my phone rang. It was the Crematory in Gleisdorf, where my sweet Murli had been cremated. Gleisdorf is a little less than half an hour away by car, depending on traffic. I was informed that I can pick up her Urn whenever I want. So I quickly looked up the times for the trains going to the town and told them I would arrive the next day at 11am. The Crematory is close to the train station.
December 19, 2019
In the morning, one of the first things I did was to finally free poor Samantha from her cone. I wanted her to be free of it and able to go to the toilet herself while I was gone for a few hours, to pick up Murli’s Urn in Gleisdorf.
Samantha simply looked exhausted after two weeks with the cone.
Thankfully the train I had to take was one of the local trains, which stop at all the stations, including the one that’s near our home, so I didn’t have to go all the way to the main train station in Graz. It’s not even 5 minutes from us with my bicycle.
The train ride itself lasts about 30 minutes, but it feels much shorter. It goes through the countryside with lots of woods and is really lovely. The train arrived a few minutes before 11am and I walked straight to the close by Pet-Crematory.
I thought I took many more photos from in front of the Crematory, but it seems the photos never saved on my phone. Something went wrong, which had probably more to do with the state I was in.
The sweet Lady I had already talked to one the one a few times greeted me as I walked in. It’s beautiful there. Much more beautiful than the Crematory for humans I’ve been to. It feels comforting as soon as you walk in. Friendly and warm. Not to mention that the people I had talked to and the sweet young man who picked up Murli, have been amazing. So understanding and kind. I knew about them for years and so I knew who to contact right away on the morning of Murli’s passing.
The Lady brought me to the room with Murli’s Urn. As soon as I got there, I greeted her as I always did with “Hey baby” and started crying right away. For quite a while. But they were just so kind there. They leave you alone, or stay with you, however you wish. You can also stay as long as you feel you need to before you leave with the Urn.
They offer to create a paw print on a ceramic and let you decide on the shape of it. I wanted it to be a heart, and the paw print in black, since Murli is a panfur with black paws. I had also asked them for some of Murli’s fur, back when I chose the Urn and paw print.
The Lady helped me to pack it up carefully, making sure it’s safe during my little travel back home. We also talked for a while, as she has cats herself and knows what it all feels like.
And so with Murli’s Urn safely with me, I went to catch the next train home. It definitely feels better now to have her urn back home with us.
It’s still going to be very difficult for quite a while, but that’s what I deal with within my own mind and soul. I want to be my normal and happy self for the other furkids, Samantha, Sonic, Lisa and Hero.
Everyone of you knows what it is like, so I don’t need, or even want to write about the sadness. Instead I want to remember and be grateful for every year, every day I got to spend with Murli my life. Murli was happiness, empathy, love and warmth all packed into a beautiful feline. All the kitties loved her right away. They all felt comfortable around her. When Hero and Lisa first came to us, and they were still absolutely frightened, they were for some reason feeling relaxed and less scared when they were near Murli. Her soul is alive and well and my bond with her will remain forever. I’m so grateful for my life with my beloved little family, which Murli will always remain part of.
We worried a lot about Samantha too, as she was really unhappy with her cone. Also, we think any movement for her felt uncomfortable, since the cut was really deep, since the Vet had to make sure to get everything during her surgery, to make sure weird growth can restart in that spot. Samantha was on pain meds of course, but it might still have been uncomfortable in some way.
Thankfully I was able to keep Samantha healthy during the whole two weeks with her cone; feeding her, giving her water with a syringe and carrying her to the toilet and everywhere else she wanted to be usually. Since she only ate chicken breast, I had to give her a supplement paste in the right amount, to make sure she still gets all the important nutrients and vitamins. When the day came to remove her stitches, Samantha was put on the scale and checked out properly. To my amazement, she had not lost any weight during that time and was well hydrated! The hydration was what I had worried about the most. I knew how much water an adult cat needs every day, and I tried my best to get as close to it as possible. Apparently it’s 50ml for every kg of body-weight.
Samantha started recovering from her ordeal and is doing really well again now. Her scar is healing up great! It’s wonderful to see her happy again.
To do something fun for the cats, I bought a little Christmas tree just for the balcony, so the cats have something interesting to smell at and investigate. They are only out for a few minutes at a time together with us, since it’s way too cold.
The other decoration I had on the living room window, had been on there since the beginning of December. But I kept candles burning ever since the day Murli had passed. That’s what this window looks like:
Later I also put up a tiny little Christmas tree which I decorated and put somewhere Lisa and Hero can’t get to. Samantha and Sonic never tried anything too silly with our Christmas trees anyway.
I bought that little tree where I had bought the bigger one for the balcony. It still smells lovely! Just for fun and because the cats need some decoration they like, I added some colourful mousies as well. Everyone got some nice Christmas gifts and tasty food. The weather station you can see behind the toys is what I got from Ralph for Christmas, since I’ve been wanting one for many years. It’s awesome!
The cats are having fun with their new toys!
Hero and Lisa are great at playing together!
Their new toy was quite helpful in trying to distract the cats from all the noise from the fire crackers and fire works at midnight on new years eve! Sonic of course was not worried anyway, since he can’t hear, but Samantha, Hero and Lisa were worried. Though we did quite well in calming them down and making them feel safer. Luckily, it’s not as crazy where we are. It would be a different story right in the city centre.
I didn’t even look at the fire works, and instead stayed with the cats, comforting them.
The last sunset of 2019 was absolutely beautiful.
And there we are, another year gone by. Actually, a whole decade gone by. But it does not feel like it’s been so long. Despite how fast the time goes by, I am thankful for every second of it. Every moment I got to spend with everyone I love. I am holding on and loving every moment I can spend with Ralph, Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa. And I’m thankful for every single friend I found through posting about Murli and about our life now.
Thank you all for every lovely word of yours and for continuing to visit, despite me not being able to keep up with my replies lots of times. Though I do read and appreciate every single one of them and I’ll reply, even if I’m late.
Ralph, the cats and myself, wish everyone of you happiness for the new year. Wishing good health and wellbeing for human and furry friends, and may everyone be able to spend as much time as they want and can with their loved ones.
You all have been so sweet and your many comments all over WordPress, Facebook, Twitter and the Emails mean so much, I can’t even describe how much. It helped my broken heart to keep going.
Internet problems since last Wednesday – I just want you to know that we’ve been having really bad trouble with our internet since last Wednesday. It got so incredibly slow, that no site would load properly, or time out altogether. Trying to comment failed mostly and the few replies I got out took multiple tries. Due to my phone internet running on the same network, it had the same issues. Many people in Austria had the same problems with the same provider these days, which is probably due to the big changes they are working on. Thankfully it seems to be working again today and hopefully, it stays that way.
I will reply to all your kind comments as soon as I can, starting tomorrow and during the next days.
Thank you so much for creating this beautiful card for Murli, Sherri-Ellen and BellaDharma and for your thoughts in your blog post. You’re purrfect friends and fur family and we love you both!
Many of you knew Murli and me for years. I shared so many posts and photos about our everyday lives and what we’re up to, way back before I even knew Ralph. Murli and I made so many wonderful friends, who became really close friends. It does not matter how far apart some of us are living, we feel close to each other and due to how we share our lives with each other. We all had our hearts stolen by each other’s furbabies and feel real heartbreak if one of them passes on. You all know very well about how I feel, so I don’t even need to describe the deep pain I feel in my heart.
It really is thanks to the love and friendship that I keep going. It’s all of it… My love for and from my other sweet furbabies Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa, and of course the love for my wonderful caring and loving husband Ralph, and the love and support of all of you kind friends. Otherwise, I think I would have just lied down in bed and give up for a while.
But I keep my head up for my other kitties and Ralph. It’s not good for the kitties if I cry constantly and give into my heartbreak. I keep busy by caring for everyone and pouring my love on all of them.
It was difficult when everyone slept and I could not go online in any way to reach out or reply to any of you, due to the internet problems. It’s the quiet hours that are the most difficult, which is why I still can not sleep well. It’s only once I become so exhausted from lack of sleep, that I can get some hours in. Eating is another challenge.
I did not expect it to happen so soon. In fact, I was sure we would have a decade or even more left with Murli. I was hoping she will reach her 20s at least.
The only thing that is a slight comfort, is to know that Murli just slept away. She simply laid down to sleep and passed away. Her body had no signs of distress or pain, she was just like she always liked to sleep when she lied down by a heater.
And so I keep on living, carrying the love for Murli in my heart for the rest of my life, together with my beloved family, Ralph, Samantha, Sonic, Hero and Lisa.
The last couple of days
I have candles burning in between the window panes for Murli and I will keep having candles burning for her at the least until the new year. Sonic also loves watching them, as he absolutely loves lights.
In our home, it’s not just Ralph and me who have been sad and missing Murli. Murli was loved by Sonic, Samantha and also the babies Hero and Lisa. There was something special about her, something that made other cats feel comfortable around her. Everyone wanted her friendship. Sonic especially loved Murli, he really did. It was obvious that he felt very sad for the first couple of days.
Sonic, who is a pretty vocal kitty boy normally, was very quiet, hardly a peep from him and he kept to himself, just sleeping mostly. Though he did eat and drink properly thankfully. But anytime he did get up from sleep, he would walk around the apartment, looking everywhere for Murli. Sniffing at everything that had her scent, trying to follow it, hoping he would find her. He kept that going for a few days but has given up now. Though I am sure he is still missing her. He is thankfully though much more himself again. Sonic bonded with Hero and Lisa as soon as he met them. I think the friendship he has with the siblings is doing him well now.
Samantha always enjoyed hanging out with Murli on the balcony in the summer, for hours and hours. I don’t think she even realises exactly what has happened yet, due to her not walking around with her cone. She hasn’t been around in the apartment except on the few cat bed spots she wants to be at.
Regarding her cone, I was not able to use anything that covers her stitches, due to them being wire stitches, as they had to be strong after she ripped out the initial ones. Anything on top of these would make it more difficult for healing, due to the wire stitches getting stuck in anything and with Samantha’s body movement, it would cause irritation. It also helped to not cover it, because it had to drain a bit.
I will use something different, like the wonderful suggestions I got, for my sweet little girl Lisa, when she gets spayed.
We’ve been to the Vet with Samantha today: Everything has healed really well! The stitches have been removed! There is only a little crust hanging on by a little corner still, which is slightly bleeding if it’s being pulled at. It’s only superficial. But she has to keep her cone until tomorrow morning, just to give it a tiny bit more time. As soon as I get up tomorrow morning, I will free her!
The babies Hero and Lisa haven’t been here long enough yet to be impacted as heavily by Murli’s passing. But they too loved Murli right away. They enjoyed hanging out with her looking out the balcony door, or the bedroom window to watch the birds. They were not worried about her or obviously felt comfortable around her right away. It was so cute to hear them talking to Murli with friendly meows, with their tails straight up.
There was a special moment with Hero and Murli after she passed – Not long after I had found my sweet girl Murli lying on a blanket next to a heater, after she had passed away in her sleep, Hero came along and lied down beside her. Then he took one of his front paws and gently laid it on one of Murli’s front paws. It was very special and words are not doing justice to how it was in reality.
Hero and Lisa are special. They were meant to come into my life at the time they did. I’m sure an angel was looking out for us, knowing about what is going to happen. Maybe it was my beloved Mama?
These two sweet kittens went through so much already in their short lives. They almost died themselves from starvation and dehydration after being abandoned. Hero with his severely injured and infected leg was so very close to death. If they had not been found when they did and by the right person, who did everything to save them, they would not be here. But now they are, and I gained their trust with lots of patience and love. They are healthy and thriving! Happy and feeling right at home with us.
Their lives just started. Murli will always be part of our family, always present in our hearts and minds. I know we will be reunited again once I have to go, but until then, I’ll treasure every single day with the ones I love, as every moment is special and will not return and you may not get another chance.
This is how she was and hung out just yesterday. She was happy. Nothing was pointing to anything being wrong.
I just wanted to let you all know, that my sweet girl Murli passed away early this morning.
My heart shattered when I found her lying on one of her spots next to the heater, as if she had simply laid down on her side to sleep and then died. When I looked down to her and saw that her beautiful big eyes were not reacting to my presence and she was lying so still, I knew she was gone. In a panic right away, I went to pet her head, and it felt cold. Her tummy was still a bit warm.
Her last big health check in the late summer showed perfectly normal blood results. Her thyroid was doing fine too with her meds, her Hyperthyroidism was totally under control with her having completely recovered from the symptoms she had from it before we started treatment. She kept the same weight.
Her teeth were regularly sorted out, and all her organs were working normally. There was no sign of any danger. I just don’t know what happened.
I called the pet cemetery people and my sweet Murli was picked up around midday. She’ll be cremated and I will pick up her Urn. They are really lovely and extremely caring and respectful in everything they do.
They will also make a beautiful ceramic heart with her paw print in it. I also chose her Urn, which is also beautiful.
It was so difficult to have to give her body away, but I will get her remains back in about a week.
I held her body a couple times and hugged and cuddled her. I just would have given anything for life to come rushing back into her.
Murli and I had a very special bond. She always knew when I was about to come home, even at random times. She also always knew when I woke up, even if she wasn’t in the room with me. I didn’t have to move, just opening my eyes was enough and she knew I was awake from a few rooms over. Then she would come to me.
She was a happy girl all the way to the end. She took to the sweet kittens Hero and Lisa more and more and loved watching them play. Murli’s tail was always straight up and she had the most beautiful purr.
I wish there would have been any sign for anything being wrong, as I would have gotten her to the Vet in an instant. I wish I would have been able to save her, from whatever was failing in her body. I also wish I would have been with her when she died, and not asleep.
There is so much more I need to tell you all, about what has been going on these days. I am a wreck at the moment, running on hardly any sleep.
Samantha is a worry as well right now, because she had a little surgery with local anaesthesia to cut out an old scar that had started to change and grow, although it was benign. But it had to be removed and I made sure it was done very quickly, since I didn’t want to take a chance of something like that becoming cancerous.
Thank God it was benign. But now she has to wear a cone, which makes her too worried to move around on her own, because she can’t see her feet. It robs her of her important senses.
Due to that, I removed the cone on Wednesday night (she had the little surgery Wednesday morning). It went alright until Friday morning, when she had suddenly and very quickly pulled out all her stitches. So I rushed her to the Vet in a Taxi right away. Thankfully it had just happened, so the wound area was still fresh and it was possible to sew her back up. If the area would have dried out already, she would have had to be put under anaesthesia and the area cut out some more, to have fresh tissue that can grow back together again. Dry tissue would not grow together again like that.
We were lucky she didn’t get an infection out of that. Though she had been put on antibiotics anyway.
So now the cone has to stay on. I can’t cover her wound area either, as it needs to be able to drain properly if it has to and it heals better that way. Also, due to the place that area is on her body, it’s very easy for her to reach with her mouth. So I can’t even use anything else, or even just shorten the cone. The cone itself is just exactly long enough for her to not be able to reach it.
Since she is too afraid to move around much with the cone, I have to carry her to the kitty toilet and I feed her by hand and give her water with a syringe.
Just yesterday I went and bought some chicken breast for Samantha and Murli to make them happy with it, as they both are crazy for it. Murli and Samantha were both so excited while I was cooking them and preparing it all for them. Both were meowing and just could not wait. Both of them ate two bowls of chicken breast each.
I just don’t know how I will get over not having my sweet little best friend around me anymore, my Babygirl Murli. We have been together since I adopted her with just a couple weeks old. She only turned 14 in August.
I can’t even put it into words how shattered I feel, how much I miss her and how badly I want her back alive. No, I really do not know how I am going to get over her passing.
But I do have so much love for my sweet 4 remaining babies and I will make sure they will have nothing less than a life filled with love and happiness. I just pray that we have many many more years with them all. I can’t bear to even think of losing one of them too.
I know I will see my lovely Murli again when it’s my time to leave my body, but it’s going to be a long time until we’re all reunited and I will miss her so so much.